[Which is the closest he'll get to saying what he really means. He's not even worried about the spying over the comms any more. They know he's a fuck up, that he's soft-hearted and he hates this place. This punishment alone is proof of it.
And yet they still can't just pull the trigger and let this whole charade be over with. That's all he wants, really. Even if it undoes all the voodoo magic they worked to get his cooling corpse up and running again. He just wants this to be done.
A grace he's not going to get.]
FROM: parker.peter@cdc.org
you think I don't know that?
FROM: parker.peter@cdc.org
Look, I can't make any guarantees. I have to try because of the terms, but I'm never going to be able to do this without regretting it. Do you understand me?
no subject
the teams not the problem
[Which is the closest he'll get to saying what he really means. He's not even worried about the spying over the comms any more. They know he's a fuck up, that he's soft-hearted and he hates this place. This punishment alone is proof of it.
And yet they still can't just pull the trigger and let this whole charade be over with. That's all he wants, really. Even if it undoes all the voodoo magic they worked to get his cooling corpse up and running again. He just wants this to be done.
A grace he's not going to get.]
FROM: parker.peter@cdc.org
you think I don't know that?
FROM: parker.peter@cdc.org
Look, I can't make any guarantees. I have to try because of the terms, but I'm never going to be able to do this without regretting it. Do you understand me?